Hi, I’m Ray! Part-time philosopher, full-time chaos gremlin — welcome to my blog on life, spirituality, and my ongoing attempt to go from merely surviving to fantastically thriving.
I’ve been very open about my journey through life — from the manic highs to the sensational lows. I’ve hit many a rock bottom (which, now that I think about it, must be why I love rocks).
✨️ My Rock Bottom(s) ✨️
To understand me and why I do this work, you need to understand the darkness that once enveloped me — because, in truth, we cannot fully appreciate our light without understanding the depth of our darkness. And darkness is often just pain with a different name.
For many years, I struggled with depression, alcohol addiction, and disordered eating, all stemming from trauma I carried with me throughout my life. I lost my son, Wyatt, before I ever got to meet him or hold him — a devastation so deep it’s hard to put into words. My then-marriage ended. And there were other losses I won’t discuss here.
This left me a shell of a human — the kind you’d often find eating biscuits, crying on the bathroom floor with a glass of wine, while “All By Myself” by Celine Dion blared in the background. (A truly cinematic moment. I have good taste.)
✨️ No Mud, No Lotus ✨️
Through hitting these multiple rock bottoms, I knew there had to be an easier way. Not just to survive… but to thrive. So I set out on a journey of self-healing, self-discovery, and self-improvement. A journey of intentional creation.
I held onto the belief that through the mud, a beautiful lotus would one day bloom — and it became my passion and purpose to blossom through life.
That journey led me to Reiki. Though I began learning my Shoden (First Degree) in 2015, it wasn’t until I completed my Shinpiden (Master Practitioner Level) in 2024 that I truly grasped the depth of the system. From there, Reiki became a guiding force — helping me dive deeper into myself and heal in ways I never thought possible.
I also became a student of Hermetic Philosophy, and as I explored the fabric of the universe, I became entranced by how these systems could work together — helping me not just survive my life, but consciously create it.
✨️ The Purpose of This Blog ✨️
This blog is a love letter to the beautiful (and often messy) process of unlearning, unbecoming, and intentionally creating yourself anew.
I write about healing, mindset, and the various modalities I use and find helpful — all through a raw, unfiltered lens. My hope is that by sharing my story, you’ll learn to love yourself through your own mess and lean on the love of divinity.
✨️ A Few More Things About Me ✨️
When I’m not being mysterious and philosophical, you’ll probably find me:
- Singing
- Baking
- Cooking
- Reading
- Getting far too invested in gaming
I’m also a proud husband, foster parent, son, and brother. My life has taken so many beautiful twists and turns since I started this journey — clawing my way up from the beautiful mess of my own rock bottom.
Today, I proudly own my recovery from alcoholism and am an avid supporter of men’s mental health groups. I believe in the power of vulnerability, community, and showing up — even when it’s hard.
So, welcome. If you’re on your own journey of healing, growth, or just trying to figure out what’s next — you’re in the right place. Let’s get through this beautiful chaos together.